Matthew 25:31-45

Sitting quietly at the store today, it was a gloomy and wet afternoon, my mom and i were just each looking up different things on the internet. The door suddenly opened ringing all the bells at the door along with it. I jumped up, walked outside and came face to face with a stranger. A stranger that i’ve never seen before. Dressed in a thin soaked jacket, that was almost falling apart at it’s seams. Ruffled unwashed dark hair, and dark fingernails. Standing in front of him, i smelled a really distinct scent of old heavy smoke. A brief moment of silence passed by, and i spoke, with the usual phrase that i’ve said SO many times before “Hi there, something i can help you with?” With a thick accent he replied “I’m looking for a job, i can clean.” Slightly still taking in what was going on, i told him “i’m sorry, we’re not hiring here.” To that, he nodded understandingly and asked “can i have water then?” Of course my response was “Sure, just give me a moment.” Immediately i told my mom to come out, and “look after” him, while i head to the back room to grab a cup of water. Strangely the only thing that went through my mind was only to find the styrofoam cups. Gulping down the first cup of water, he asked “one more?” and thrust the cup back to me. A little shocked i still managed to say “Sure.” and rushed to the back again, almost if i was scared to leave this man outside with my mom for more than a few seconds something might happen. After finishing the second cup of water, he threw out the cup in one of the garbage cans we had outside, and said a quick “thank you”. As he was walking to the door, once again i said a phrase that i’ve rehearsed so many times, in the most cheerful and preppy voice i say “No problem. Have a good day!” and at that the man walked off.

Moments after he left, my mom told me to go sweep the floor. I questioned why that was necessary and she told me that while i was getting water at the back, he scratched his help and she saw things fall from him. Not knowing what i might have been, i obediently went to sweep. While i was doing that my mom also said “Daughter, i don’t think i can ever be a missionary. Or go with you to Africa if God calls you there.” That’s what got me to start thinking.

I must confess, that my initial feeling towards that man, was to take a step back and try to be as far possible as i could without him thinking that i’m avoiding him. And when he asked for a cup of water the reason why i was looking for a styrofoam cup was not cuz it was convienent, but more so, if i gave him a drink in one of the ceramic cups that we use, do i throw it out after? or would i just wash it?

Then my mom’s comment really struck me. What IF someone like that walked into our church sunday morning? How would the congragation react? and even more personally…how would I personally react? Yea i gave him a cup of water. But was it because i saw him through God’s eyes and loved him like Christ does? Or was it because i was merely scared that he’ll beat me up if i didn’t give him some water?

I was reminded of the passage in Matthew.

31“When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, he will sit on his throne in heavenly glory. 32All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate the people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. 33He will put the sheep on his right and the goats on his left. 34“Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. 35For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, 36I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’ 37“Then the righteous will answer him, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? 38When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? 39When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?’ 40“The King will reply, ‘I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.’ 41“Then he will say to those on his left, ‘Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. 42For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.’ 44“They also will answer, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?’ 45“He will reply, ‘I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.’

Just really got me thinking. Will reflect more later.


It’s been awhile….

AGAIN….let’s try to do this….=P

i’ve been so bad when it comes to this…like once a year i’ll pick on it for like 1 or 2 post…at least i remember my login and password this time 🙂 *Sigh…we’ll see how this once works out 🙂

It’s been over a month since school ended, and almost 2 weeks since CC ended. SO where to next. Where’s God taking me. All these HUGE parts of me coming to end. In awe? MOST definitely. Bittersweet? yes. Confused? Sometimes. Empty? A bit. Lost? Definitely a bit of that too. BUT God’s given me a new vision. I know it sounds a little crazy…but let me explain the story…and where i’m coming from.Being back home now has been an interesting learning experience. Can’t say it’s my favourite thing EVER. Relearning how to live WITH my family again. I guess being away for 4 years…things change…people grow…and learned to live lives seperately. And now that i’m home…there’s a lot of adjusting not only for me, but for my family too. but there’s the pressure of adjusting back to THEIR way of life…like they just can’t quite grasp the concept that i’m actually a grown up now, with my own responsiblities, and plans…that they can no longer continuously make decisions for me. Feeling old..but in highschool all over again. Don’t really know where to pinpoint it. But I trust that God can make this work 🙂

Going back to my home church is interesting too. Suddenly they want me to help with every possible ministry that is lacking people! and suddenly everyone’s wondering when i’ll start bring a “special friend” to meet them! Just the mentioning of “ppl getting married” all eyes turn…and they turn in expectance that it would be my next step after graduation.  These aunties and uncles make my laugh!!! 😛

I’ve been looking into new ministries. Since coming back from CC…i felt in a sense that God’s telling me that my “university” ministry time is up. So i’ve been looking around for different things and praying about it. After sharing with my parents and some auntie and uncles at church who have the heart for evangelism…i’ve really been feeling that God has placed a sense of urgency and burden in my heart for the younger generation (the highschool/early uni students). When this need was  first showned to me…my first reaction was “YOU CANNOT BE SERIOUS GOD….” I’ve always worked with the young grade school, from kindergarten to Gr7 kids at church and absolutely love them…and SCHOOL…well i studied the complete opposite with seniors who i think are SO cute and adore them… never had i ever dreamed that God would placed a heart in me to work with the ppl in between the 2 extremes that i love. But as the hustling from aunties at church to help find more resources pushed closer. I just couldn’t say NO to God. and the heart for the age group of young ppl that i’ve vaguely served with grew crazier. SO as i was looking for resources for my church i came across this http://www.epicentrecanada.com/default.aspx  and this sudden urge and vision of revival for all these students in mississauga just flooded….Initially i was only thinking about mississauga cuz that’s where my church is, but we’re too close to the GTA to not tap into that huge pool of students AND potentials!!!  I know i’m thinking  and dreaming crazy BIG, more like HUGE…praying about that now…:P but if a small town of
Barrie can get 5000+ students..there’s SO many more right here. I vision
Rogers centre being FILLED with students wanting to know Him and serve Him. CRAZY?! I KNOW! but God can do it! after what He has shown me at CC…i confident i can expect SO MUCH for from Him cuz He always goes above and beyond what i can dream of! Scared? A little! i mean it’s crazy big dreaming and SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITING! PRAYing praying praying. 

A verse that spoke to me today while doing devos…from Habakkuk 3:2         

     “LORD, I have heard of your fame;
       I stand in awe of your deeds, O LORD.
       Renew them in our day,
       in our time make them known;
       in wrath remember mercy.”

Soooo crazy…sooooooo true…this generation is capable of SO much….I can see it!!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee 😛 

Thought it would be nice to do an ACTUAL post.

So Campus Challenge was about 2 weeks ago now. Still so in awe with all the lessons God has taught me before, during, and after this event. Despite the craziness GOD IS SOOOOOOOO GOOOD!!! I honestly LOVE everything HE did at CC this year!!!

Before: Reflecting now of how all this came together…it still amazes me that God would bring together a group of clueless kids to do crazy things for Him. Who would have thought…that me of all people would be called to take on a role that i never even dreamed of being placed in. Someone who sucks at making decisions, who gets suckered so easily to change my mind, spazzes everytime I think I’ll offend someone, and freaks out when people intimidate me…to be the person that has the final say in certain decisions…that’s just CRAZIES! =P OH and on top of that…being in a committee dominated by BOYS….(yes kids…i said BOYS… =P hehe) i was definitely freaking out when the opportunity was brought up. Female leadership in a committee of all boys…how much more intimidating can this get? Doubts and fears just took over as i continously pushed the decision to step up one week after another. Looking back now tho…it’s really cool what God taught me during the decision process. The whole lesson of “strength in weakness” became loud and clear. At Urbana, i was still struggling with this decision, and to a certain extent i felt then that i was being suckered into it…and didn’t know how to say no kinda thing…so God taught be there….that it was okay to make people wait…as i was waiting for God’s answer too.

God really blessed me with a really supportive and encouraging committee that has pulled through, and endured my craziness and girliness throughout the entire 6 months or so of planning. i can honestly say…that even the times i get frustrated or went crazy about getting things done in “my” schedule….i really love these 6 crazy children (Calvin, Mike, Jean-Luc, Alex, Herman and Yu-Ling)…they make me laugh, surprise me constantly with the random things they come up with, embarass me non-stop. BUT helped me learn HUGE lessons of Faith, Patience and Prayer. *i heart you boys*! one more person that constantly keeps accountable and a crazy girlie herself…with out jenn’s support, encouragement and prayer i don’t think i would have stepped up for the job. Her humbleness and huge heart…just puts a smile to my face ALL the time!!! *muah!* God is SO faithful to each of us…and allowed us to take part in this ministry. WE really didn’t do anything but God allowed us to build such insane friendships! *all warm and fuzzy now* 😀 hehehe

During: During the conference….God just BLEW ME AWAY with what HE can do. i was running around…and being asked questions everywhere…running on little sleep…but God proved how amazing He is…and how the conference was ALL HIS to begin with.

The first 2 days few by so quickly…and to be honest…there was crazy ups and downs there. A bunch of stuff happened and i was slightly discouraged. I really wanted people to get something out of the conference…but i also understand that it’s each person’s choice as to how much they put in they’ll get out. For me the hardest part was seeing my housemate who is so important to me, not getting anything out of it, and not being to able to meet his expectations for the conference. It was hard for both me and my other housemate who was on worship. We really felt satan attacking not only the housemate that we’ve babied for the pass 3 years, but attacking us too. And boy did we fall and allowed satan to discourage us and put a huge rock where it mattered most cuz it was so close to home…CC was our hope and dream that we’ll be able to see him take his own step closer to Christ. BUT God once again proved to be SO powerful. We prayed SO hard saturday night and sunday morning…and God works FAST! He allowed us to realize that once again we had to bring it to His feet…So during sunday night university group time, we saw God at work. Not only did He soften my housemate’s heart, but also placed in it a heart to go on a missions trip. *jaw dropping* God is SO good and SO funny. I was SO encouraged at that point….i wanted to squeal!!! but contained myself. 😛

The last day, when we had communion, sharing and prayer with each university groups, God really showed me how greatly He works in student ministry. From Queens, who we prayed SO HARD for, realizing that they do “need us” as an interdependent body in this ministry. To the montreal/ottawa students committing to serve on their campus ministries. JUST SO WOWed. and speechless.

SO many encouraging things happened. Seeing God at work…just blows me away, not just what we’ve prayed for, but beyond we can imagine. Never fails to take my breath away 🙂 (cheezy i know…but seriously what happened)

After: Soooo what’s going on now. Through this whole process and conference, i really saw God work. Teaching me to grow up, make decisions, let Him take full control to just being amazed constantly by Him.

Recently i was sharing with a group of aunties and uncles at church, and God spoke…and it was like “whoa”…i never thought i would have the heart for the highschool/early uni group at church. i’ve always worked with the young kiddies, and studied old ppl but the ppl in between…meh. But i can’t let what God has taught me in the past 6 months and the past 4 years aside now that it’s over. dunno where God’s heading but i’m willing to give it a shot. God’s always full of surprises.

Overall: ALL SMILES!!! to EVERYTHING! and quoting GF “i can truly say i loved campus challenge this year” and i can’t stop smiling and jumping given the honour to see all that God’s done throughout 🙂

why must herman be so far away

Just beautiful 🙂 i heart 😀

my sillies

my sillies….herman you HAVE To come for 1 outting

Found one with everyone!!!! 🙂


We’re crazy AND fobby..what a combo 😀 i heart 😀 hehe

Johnson this is clearly to keep you busy at work AND look like you’re doing something 😛 maybe you should start a blog too…so I CAN READ IT!!! hehehehee (i think that’s a PERFECT idea!) I shall post something longer in 2 hrs 😛 gotta finish some arrangements for delivery first 🙂

One more shot…

soooooo i was really bored at work…and someone got tired of entertaining me…so i was directed to…blogging again…we’ll see how long this one can last…i completely forgot my passwords and user names for the other 2 therefore…another new one :D!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe

trying to make this look pretty…clearly haven’t been successful yet…so we’ll see…tomorrow at work might allow me to figure this out…too many functions!!! hehe…i’ll be occupied for a while with this 🙂