It’s been over a month since school ended, and almost 2 weeks since CC ended. SO where to next. Where’s God taking me. All these HUGE parts of me coming to end. In awe? MOST definitely. Bittersweet? yes. Confused? Sometimes. Empty? A bit. Lost? Definitely a bit of that too. BUT God’s given me a new vision. I know it sounds a little crazy…but let me explain the story…and where i’m coming from.Being back home now has been an interesting learning experience. Can’t say it’s my favourite thing EVER. Relearning how to live WITH my family again. I guess being away for 4 years…things change…people grow…and learned to live lives seperately. And now that i’m home…there’s a lot of adjusting not only for me, but for my family too. but there’s the pressure of adjusting back to THEIR way of life…like they just can’t quite grasp the concept that i’m actually a grown up now, with my own responsiblities, and plans…that they can no longer continuously make decisions for me. Feeling old..but in highschool all over again. Don’t really know where to pinpoint it. But I trust that God can make this work 
Going back to my home church is interesting too. Suddenly they want me to help with every possible ministry that is lacking people! and suddenly everyone’s wondering when i’ll start bring a “special friend” to meet them! Just the mentioning of “ppl getting married” all eyes turn…and they turn in expectance that it would be my next step after graduation. These aunties and uncles make my laugh!!! 
I’ve been looking into new ministries. Since coming back from CC…i felt in a sense that God’s telling me that my “university” ministry time is up. So i’ve been looking around for different things and praying about it. After sharing with my parents and some auntie and uncles at church who have the heart for evangelism…i’ve really been feeling that God has placed a sense of urgency and burden in my heart for the younger generation (the highschool/early uni students). When this need was first showned to me…my first reaction was “YOU CANNOT BE SERIOUS GOD….” I’ve always worked with the young grade school, from kindergarten to Gr7 kids at church and absolutely love them…and SCHOOL…well i studied the complete opposite with seniors who i think are SO cute and adore them… never had i ever dreamed that God would placed a heart in me to work with the ppl in between the 2 extremes that i love. But as the hustling from aunties at church to help find more resources pushed closer. I just couldn’t say NO to God. and the heart for the age group of young ppl that i’ve vaguely served with grew crazier. SO as i was looking for resources for my church i came across this http://www.epicentrecanada.com/default.aspx and this sudden urge and vision of revival for all these students in mississauga just flooded….Initially i was only thinking about mississauga cuz that’s where my church is, but we’re too close to the GTA to not tap into that huge pool of students AND potentials!!! I know i’m thinking and dreaming crazy BIG, more like HUGE…praying about that now…:P but if a small town of
Barrie can get 5000+ students..there’s SO many more right here. I vision
Rogers centre being FILLED with students wanting to know Him and serve Him. CRAZY?! I KNOW! but God can do it! after what He has shown me at CC…i confident i can expect SO MUCH for from Him cuz He always goes above and beyond what i can dream of! Scared? A little! i mean it’s crazy big dreaming and SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITING! PRAYing praying praying.
A verse that spoke to me today while doing devos…from Habakkuk 3:2
“LORD, I have heard of your fame;
I stand in awe of your deeds, O LORD.
Renew them in our day,
in our time make them known;
in wrath remember mercy.”
Soooo crazy…sooooooo true…this generation is capable of SO much….I can see it!!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
